Rockette

Sometimes I still think of you. Especially when pieces of she and I don't fit.

More and more I realise you and I had run our course and I don't have any regrets anymore about us ending.

But sometimes I do miss you, and even catch myself saying things you would say.

Sometimes I still want to talk to you. But I hold myself back because of the water that has run under the bridge. The things that have passed between us that make me hesitate and actually doubt I can trust you.

There are parts of me you understand well. Parts that she will not be able to grasp yet.

You know. today she and I had an argument. Actually it started last night. About the dogs again. And today she announced her grandmother was ill. It seems like every time she and I have a blowout something big happens in one of our lives. As if the universe doesn't want to give us a chance to fight and argue and sort things out.

I wonder how things will turn out this time. I know thought that with her it is different. I am quite happy to let her go off into her own world and not bother. Just make my own merry way. I am learning to detach myself from my other halves.

Did you teach me that?