Blessing

I just finished watching Eat, Pray, Love.

It's funny how in some ways things in the movie resonated with me.

I told Tigger today that I fear I do not know how to be with myself. Because I guess, I now have her, to fill the gaps and spaces and round me out.

I couldn't explain it and there it was, in this movie.

Here is my life thus far - I have loved and lost more than once, and I fear that this time I will lose it again. Perhaps because it is inevitable.

But I should instead focus on the journey, on the moment and not on the eventuality of things.

That is what I know but sometimes forget.

I have been thinking on and off about the meeting with Faber and KC at Hutch's party. It's one of those moments when you just connect with someone and you understand plain as day why they are there in your life, right at that moment.

I had been feeling doubts about the resort. About things in general, although quite honestly, I have no reason to do so. I still have those passing doubts now about Tigger and I. And that is why meeting Faber has been important.

He has reminded me that what I need to do is to tell the universe what I want. And to truly believe that I want it. To turn things on their head and actually commit myself to the universe and believe that it will bring me what I want.

Forget logic.

Just believe.

The movie reminded me of the magic of Bali. Of the things that I felt while there and how it healed me. And how I now have Tigger in my life like a blessing.