Alone

I hope someday soon you will see that the real problem, the root of all the hurtful, mean and cruel things we have done each other is her.

If she was your real friend, she would not have called you five, six times a day on the pretext of just chatting with you. Even when she knew she was causing a problem between us.

If she was a real friend she would not have asked you to go to JB and offer you her bed.

If she was a real friend she would not hate me, because she doesn't know me and I have done nothing to her.

If she was a real friend she would be helping you get back on your feet for the long-term, and not get in the way of your happiness. Instead, she offers you a part-time job, lures you to the temptation of starting a new life, away from resolving the issues of your old one.

If she was your real friend, Anim, she would not do these things.

Instead,

She would have stopped calling you.

She would not have asked you to come to JB, but instead offered to speak to me.

She would not have let you sleep in her bed because she would know how that would look, and know how that would have made me feel.

She would not have sent you that SMS.

She wants to destroy us, Anim. Why can't you see?

Or perhaps you do see and it is an easy and convenient way for you to end this. Even though a big part of you still loves me and wants me in your life. Maybe you are too overwhelmed by the problem. But can't you see that I am still here and still standing by you, willing to be the rock you lean on as you traverse the valley?

I think it's enough. Enough of me trying.

It's time I left you alone in darkness so you can perhaps adjust to the lack of light and begin to see what really lurks in the corners of her heart.