PMS

I know I am getting my period which is why I am probably so fucking moody.

I am extra sensitive, extra insecure, extra everything. Grouchy, grumpy, touchy, impatient, terse.

Why can't you understand that I just need some babying and cuddling, in the same way that you have over the last few weeks?

I just wanted to be a girl for one night who could feel like she was the prettiest thing in the universe. And no, you don't make me feel that way. You barely tell me how pretty I am. I don't feel very pretty around you. I only feel pretty these days because I am skinnier and I think I like who I see in the mirror.

But you don't make me feel pretty. You make me feel loved, yes. But you are also the person who says that you don't love women for their looks alone. And that often the women you go out with are not conventionally pretty. So I assume you include me in that category.

But I know that on some days and last night I was pretty, even by conventional standards. I was hot, and I had hoped you would notice.

I guess you did notice, but it still wasn't enough to make you come home with me.

Sometimes I really wonder why I bother trying.

Maybe I shouldn't.

Maybe I should but do it for myself only. And not look forward to you saying anything or noticing anything about me.

That way I won't be disappointed.

Is it so wrong for a girl to want to hear from the one she loves every day how she is loved and adored and how beautiful she is? If the one I love doesn't tell me, who should?